Saturday, September 22, 2007
22 Sept, Sat.
My backpain is back... F*&^.. after a couple of mths of getting used to the aching ( mind you.. the aching on my back never really go away completely for the past 1 yr.. is jus me getting desensitized and use to the ache tt I seems fine), the sharp pain came back on Thurs and hit me hard.. the pain shoot from my waist level, in both directions, towards both my left ankle n my head.. causing pain n numbness throughout the whole left side of my body. The tot tt i'll b paralysis for half of me appears and really make me feel damn sian.. if i am to become paralysis.. i probably would choose to die than becoming a burden to anyone.. with the persisting pain, i can hardly walk (was limping all the way cos my left leg can only walk half my usual steps. neither can i sit nor stand properly cos of the pain... so so demoralised... ended up have to close the lab early n go and consult the doctor in school, in case i need to go hospital then NUH will b easier for me. Fortunate for me i dun need to go hospital n the doc jus give me painkiller n a day mc for fri. so fri n now.. only thing i can do is to lie down on my bed.. sigh.. initiately the accupuncture i went ytd did help me relief a bit of the pain and hope of back to better condition after i go for the 2nd round of treatment today arises.. however, a girl walkin in front of me suddenly turn and her bag bump into me on my way to the treatment. Ouch!!! the pain came back n so the hope tarnished.. so freakin sian n felt so vulnerable... sigh. so now having reach hm, i can only lie down n give up the possibility that i can go lantern festival with my family.. sigh..
Me.. a lifetime burden...
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What to say about myself... most of the time I really dunno myself that well.. hmm..
A boy who dun get angry easily and always enjoy the sky, the sea, and quiet moments..
A boy who likes to see smiles put on the face of the people around him..
A boy who always reflect back what had happened and often ends up blaming himself for whatever happens..
An introvert And pessismist by nature.. cynical at times too.. can be quite extreme in tots and quite stubborn too..
Hate backstabber or those who put on a hypocritical mask..
also dislike people who don't keep their promises esp when they said it so seriously..
Hope to have a simple life but know that it'll never be possible here..
Of cos, my frens out there who got this blog address should roughly know what kind of person I'm too. If interested to find out more, read the entries and tok to mi one-to-one.
