15 Sept 2007

2 mths since I've update this blog.. Anyway, quite a few things happened over the past 2 mths.. Finally decided to go see specialist for my back n took a MRI (magnetic resonance imaging) for the irritating back and guess wat.. my bottom-most invertabrate disc is slightly protruding n hence tt's y my back have not being feeling well for soooo long. probably cos somehow it's irritating the blood vessel n nerves ending that branch out from my spine.. sigh... but the most sian thing is.. after the doc ask me to bend forward n backward.. told me that shd be nothing chronic and hence, they wont do anything abt it. Simply refer me to 3 session of physiotherapy (which ended on last wed) n some Vit B complex (fullstop). tt's it! they can do nothing abt it. even the physiotherapist say since i'm havin this condition for 1 yr le, there's nothing they can do much.. oh man.. simply unprofessional. sianz.. so does tt means I have to live with this condition all my life? IF it gets worse then the only thing to do is surgery to remove the disc n put in artificial one.. sigh.. is there anyway to push it back? :( anyway still got one specialist appointment in Oct n I suppose there's nothing they can or will do.. a girl from the other lab was telling me to go CGH.. shd i? hmm....
Anyway.. these 2 mths was also the months for more heartbreaks.. reason being Jiayann finally got her place at the new company n already started work there.. sigh... I am happy for her that she gets to move on but then on the otherhand, really missed her presence in the lab.. now the lab only left me to run.. everyday is comin back to the empty lab without any expectation tt someone will b sitting beside me at a later time.. sigh.. thinking abt it really throws me back to self-pity mode.. and the day she left n the following day.. i cried.. feeling so emotional cos somehow it jus feel like a breakup cos i know she'll never come back and from then on, I'll not see her often anymore.. she's being a really good companion and we used to share our tots and stories but now I have no one to tell to anymore.. sigh..
Then the next thing, Bobby, another close colleague of mine is leaving next wk.. really appreciate his companionship and glad that he's always around to visit me n asked me for lunch n all.. a very frenly and helpful guy. Sorry that at times I'm really unfrenly n rude. always feel quite bad when I do that to him..
Also a couple of users also told me they have left.. so all these movements really makes me feeling very down.. the feeling of loneliness... i still cant get used to it.. :*(
will I gets to move on too? sigh... hopefully the interview can gets through.. dilemma, dilemma..
Lastly, Joined National museum as voluteer and participated one of the activities.. was quite interesting to get to know a couple of other volunteers and learnt to play the childhood games , tops n five stones. More activities coming up for NM celebrating 120 yrs. :)