Frustrating tots:

What's your impression when toking to mi?
R the things I said very boring?
Do you felt any difficulty in tokin to mi? Y?
Am I too longwinded, naggy, always beat around the bush?
Are my thinkings so off that somehow making mi into an outcast?
Did I ever feel that I'm not listening or drift away whenever you are tokin to mi?
Is my presence ever making you feel awkward?

Tots that escalate from yesterday trip.. but not really related to it.. Just feel so irritated and frustrated about the tokin to ppl.. WTF is wrong with my communication skill? Y is it that whenever i tok to someone (anyone except sales person), the person will jus turn away/ do other things/ drift away/ tok to another person while I'm still toking!?? then when i chk back whether you know wat I tokin abt? the ans: huh? can u repeat tt?
Always feel irritated whenever the person is not listening. When do I ever get the kind of respect of someone listenin to mi? If i dun tok will it be better? but like i mentioned before.. there's a stress about keeping mum.. I dun want to be like my dad who is very quiet.. i try to change.. i try to look into ppl's eyes when they tok, ask some qns here n there, be more observant of the surroundings and people and read more articles so that there's something to discuss if need be, take the effort to rem as much as i can wat frens said before so as to chk back with them to show concern if applicable. but wat the hell am i doing all these for?
In the past I used to stop and forget watever i said once anyone interrupt (reason: since u are not interested in listening, then forget it.. i won't carry on saying it anymore.. ) then someone commmented: how come u always say things half way one.. then even now, i try to finish watever i have to say regardless whether u are listening or not but in the end: wat u say? or the simply nod and orh.. and frustration sets in.. so u tell mi wat do i have to do?